I'm Only Human

Love and god are not a different things. Love is a gift from god. Because of god, we can love somebody. This is what I believe. there is no immortality here. You will get everything more than you wanted there.

I believe in what I believed, and its not easy to decide. If there is still a doubt, we don’t deserve to say that word. When I drawn into the bitterness, I’m pretty sure, it’s hard to believe in something, everything is going so maze. It’s not fair. I said that for a thousand times to myself. I thought I was right. I thought I won’t be hurts. I thought I just need myself to do this. Until I don’t know what I have to do and where I have to go. In the end, I found the answer. Everything will leave me. No, I will leave everything, through the death. Soon or later, it’s just about a time.

Talking about the death, I realize that I'd have been gone too far. I’m only human, need a happiness and scare of the pain. I don’t care with the way to get happy, I’m arrogant; I want everything is going fine without have crying after. But what can I do? I’m only human, Have a limit. I see around me and look up to the sky, at that time I realize that I’m weak, I’m fragile, I’m nothing.

Do I have to keep runaway? Do I have to leave myself like this? Who will stand for me forever? Who has shoulder that I can cry on forever? Who can really I count on forever?? and my desperation found the answers, no one. Everybody needs those things. 

I'm searching for the way to back, and I know I have to pass the this first, before catch the real place. i need do this together. because we are only human.

-fidya